Today was not particularly eventful, although I did catch up with a friend. We went to the Library and had a look at some cook books, as we both have an interest in cooking. He is encouraging me to look into the sort of cooking that interests me, which at the moment is anything vegetarian, preferably vegan.
I realised this morning that cooking is one of my favourite past times and that it is something I could become passionate about again. This made me ponder the affects of the antipsychotics, because they do tend to blunt the emotions somewhat, and a lot of people report losing interest in usual activities (Psychiatrists like to put this down to the progression of the “disease”).
I do hope to be cooking for friends once again very soon. What especially interests me at the present time is sweet foods, such as cup-cakes, jelly slices, custards, cheese-cakes and other similarly exquisite foods, but made with alternative ingredients. I believe this will take a lot of playing around with.
After the Library, we went to a coffee group, where someone informed me about a disorder that affects the level of pyroles in the body – which in turn affects B6 and Zinc levels. This is one thing that affects many people with mood disorders, schizophrenia and other mental health issues. 10-20% of schizophrenics are believed to have this disorder and could otherwise be well without it.
If adequate B6 and Zinc is taken, the pyroles diminish in number and the person becomes well (this has been demonstrated, it is not merely a theory). I don’t believe this is the aetiology of the problem I am facing, as my Zinc levels have been too high if anything, but are stable now and my B6 is fine. In fact, all of my bloods came back perfect recently, whereas for many years they were terrible and I was sometimes given B12 injections.
I do not want to say what my plans are for the rest of the week, because I want to discuss these things after the fact, rather than ahead, as it says in the Bible to say only “Yes” or “No”, not to say “I will do this or I will do that”. It says, “Let your Yes be yes and your no be no. However, I will say that I have been going to a support group and that is going very well. If someone asked me if I intend to go in the future, I would say, “certainly, yes”.
Another thing is I am slowly learning to live more “in the now” – the present moment – and less so in the past or future. Apparently it was Lao Tzu who said, “if you are depressed you are living in the past, if you are worried you are living in the future, and if you are content you are living in the now.” or words to that effect.
May God Bless You All Always, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen…
…And Good day or night – wherever you are! 🙂
